‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) & Me 4 Today – – Fear, Frustration & Loathing

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Reflections--COPD Being willing to share with others the path I am traveling while battling ‘Lenny’ (name I have given my COPD/Asthma) is almost like therapy for me while also giving me the responsibility of taking my battle seriously.

With the help of social media I know I can also reach out to others who are also fighting similar battles and hopefully at time supply a little insight, little knowledge and maybe stir up some questions.

So today I share where I am at and maybe how I may or may not be dealing with it.

Fear – it is imbedded within my system and at times I feel it, maybe feel it and most of all am having trouble removing it.  The fear at the moment is crowds, crossing paths with folks that have gaudy perfumes/colognes and just too many folks with not enough space.

Some of that fear seems real as I ran some errands and had to deal with a local business person whose perfume/cologne was what I call gaudy and I could notice a small reaction in my breathing.  Sadly I have to deal with this place of business at least once or twice a month and lately I have notice my smell and breathing react to the extremely strong air fresheners they are using.

Frustration – a very common theme in my life these days as I get easily frustrated when that pesty SoB (Short of Breath) pesters ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma), which in turns causes a problem for me to get things done or go places.

The frustration at this point is that despite some adjustments in meds I am doing I seem to be having plenty of pesty visits from SoB and it is keeping me from doing some things.  Maybe it is from the weather, maybe it is from the major construction going on ½ block from home or maybe it’s just my COPD/Asthma getting a little worse – I just don’t know.

I had hoped to do like drive to my Dad’s and attend the spring football game tomorrow in Nebraska, but driving nearly 4 hours alone and then trying to get on a packed full bus, spend 3 hours with 72,000 other Husker fans and then traveling back to Dad’s on another packed full bus just seemed to be asking for a problem I did not want.  This makes year number three that I have missed the family football get together, very family frustrating.

Loathing – as the days go by I find my intensity in some of my dislikes for things going on around me, from my health to my political views, seems at times almost strong enough to get me in trouble with others and myself – maybe working on my beginnings of Tai Chi will help.

And that my friends is where ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) and I are at 4 today.

Most postings I try to finish with a question, today I ask this question – What are your fears, frustrations and loathings – presuming you have some?  I am saying thanx for your willingness to respond to my question of the posting, responses which I hope you will post at the posting website of wheezingaway.com.

NOTE TO REMEMBER: We only give descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.

I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer through wheezingaway.com)

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