Being willing to share with others the path I am traveling while battling ‘Lenny’ (name I have given my COPD/Asthma) is almost like therapy for me while also giving me the responsibility of taking my battle seriously.
With the help of social media I know I can also reach out to others who are also fighting similar battles and hopefully at time supply a little insight, little knowledge and maybe stir up some questions.
Today I once again share where I am at and maybe how I may or may not be dealing with it.
Heading out on a short road trip, taking me back to my old stomping grounds of Lincoln, Nebraska and while excited, I seem to feel a deep sense of apprehension.
The road trip is partially out of necessity as my 81-year old aunt from the east coast has been here for a couple of days on the back end of her 10-day family visit to the great plains and since the end of her visit requires catching a plane out of Lincoln then somebody has to get her to the airport on time.
Any trip to Lincoln is exciting as it gives me a time to reflect on a wonderful time of growing up (at least kindergarten through ninth grade) while also a bit of a sad time as so much has changed and so many folks are no longer with us, but still – going to Lincoln is a trip I almost always will welcome with open arms.
So why the deep sense of apprehension – by looking within I think I can find the levels of apprehension and why they are running deep today.
For one I have not had a very enjoyable summer with the hot temperature and high humidity causing ‘Lenny’ to wrestle with me much more often than normal and every time we wrestle it seems to just blow up my energy like a prick of a pin to a fully inflated balloon. This alone can cause more than enough apprehension in any and all may try to do in any day, week or month.
Secondly, anytime I travel anymore I find a raised level of stress because of having to make sure I have my meds, make sure I have an extra rescue inhaler, make sure I have my nebulizer machine and meds, make sure I have my c-pap machine for sleeping and still make sure I pack the clothes and personal necessities I will be needing.
A third reason could be that new exciting world of journalism I have re-entered on a free-lance level writing for a new weekly newspaper in the area. Knowing that next weeks edition is requiring three personal profiles, a large fall sports preview plus a recap of the next scheduled local school board meeting. And the appointments and contacts I need to make need to be made now, but yet scheduled in a two day window for when I get back – time frames sometimes are such a pain.
A fourth reason for some deep apprehension, and this one is more of a personally fulfilling one, will be having the time to visit a few old friends, the old stomping ground neighborhood and schools as well as taking pictures, pictures and more pictures – plus the goal of going through my Dad’s house and taking many, many pictures of pictures and things.
So apprehension can be defined from two different angles – one being of understanding and grasp of something/somewhere/somebody and/or a filling of anxiety or fear. By those definitions I am comfortable knowing that I will, at least for the next couple of days, have a deep feeling of all things defined as apprehension.
And this all comes without facing the fact that my visits with my dear, wonderful aunt seem to be getting farther apart and that adds apprehension in the fear that someday, sometime, somehow she too will be gone and our human visits will be no more.
And that my friends is where ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) and me are at 4 today.
*** I continue a request for all to hold Kaycie Chapman (from down New Zealand way) in your thoughts, prayers and blessings as she continues her courageous Facebook sharing of her continuing battle with late stages of emphysema/asthma/COPD – and she continues to do it with the level of faith and hope for which we all should hope we will have when our battle and travels become much, much worse. Prayers and Blessings Kaycie.
NOTE TO REMEMBER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.
As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.
Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.
I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.
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