‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) & Me 4 Today – – Where Did It Go?

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MarvelsOfSpaceAndTime--BloodMoon--Sept2015 Yes I continue my daily battle with my sidekick ‘Lenny’ (the name I have given my COPD/Asthma) and for me part of my therapy of sorts is to put into words how my battle may be going and then sharing it openly as part of what I call my responsibility.

That responsibility for my battle is to talk about my travels with ‘Lenny’ and share with others with the hope that maybe, just maybe, I will reach even one other person whom may read what I share and realize they are not alone.

While my buddy ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) may not be anywhere near as severe as many, it is bad enough that even though I am not on oxygen 24/7 yet I do find it very, very difficult to work or do anything much physical for more than about 15 minutes without having to stop and let my lungs catch up.

Today I once again share where I am at and maybe how I may or may not be dealing with it.

Where did it go?  Just where did this past week run off too, I am looking back and I am not sure just what happened, let alone when, why or how.

I do know that having goals or a passion for something(s) can and will (in my opinion) help in a battle with COPD/Asthma or any health issue.

For me I have a couple of passions and they each keep me going in their own ways and do in part help my battle with my ornery sidekick ‘Lenny’, while at the same time those same passions can and do work against me – that is when I have to key in on the event and either prepare for what will be happening or prepare for the ramifications of the happening.

Example – last Monday I drove 2 ½ hours each way just to have barely 2 hours of watching my oldest grandson play in his junior varsity high school football game as my kids and grandkids are a major focus point of my journey.  With no opportunity for anyone to go with me, it was just me and I am fully aware that anymore, even trips like that can stress my physical and mental nature to a point that I have to prepare for the day after in which I almost always (at least anymore) will have a full or partial day of struggling with ‘Lenny’ flaring up and reminding me of my weakened breathing apparatus.

Example 2 – Sunday evening we all know about the ‘Blood Moon Lunar Eclipse’ and since another passion I have is photography I insisted on going out to just beyond the edge of town, find a parking spot and spend two plus hours taking over 600 photo shots of the event itself.

Problem was I positioned myself on a rock gravel road and when traffic did go by they threw rocks and lots of dust.  Even my middle grandson noticed and reminded ‘Papa’ that somebody should have brought a cover for his ‘breathing holes’, it is nice to have grandkids that watch out for you.  Of course by the middle of yesterday I was feeling somewhat miserable for a few hours – but then again I put myself in that position and knew it was coming so I cleared my day to have just me time to let ‘Lenny’ squeeze my lungs for a short while before I was able to use some of those ‘pursed lips’ things to get ‘Lenny’ to let go and go back into hiding until another time.

See just two events combined with my writing and boom, here it is the beginning of another week and I am still floundering over what happened in the last seven days let alone properly plan out for a new seven day stretch.  So as I looked in the mirror this morning I simply gave myself a toothy smile, a laugh and a hearty ‘oh what the hell it is just time and what importance is that’ speaking too.

So when you think you are starting to wonder ‘where did it go’ with your time and days – find your passions, set some goals and run for them as fast and devoted as you can because ‘where did it go’ is too important to those of us with time limits tapping us on the shoulder.

And that my friends is where ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) and me are at 4 today.

*** CONTINUE PRAYERS AND BLESSINGS FOR KAYCIE CHAPMAN ***

NOTE TO REMEMBER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.

I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer through wheezingaway.com)

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‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) & Me 4 Today – – I Thinks it’s Depression!

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Health--COPD--TheTrickIsToKeepBreathing I continue that daily battle with my sidekick ‘Lenny’ (the name I have given my COPD/Asthma) and part of my therapy is to put into words how my week or day is going and then sharing it openly as part of what I call my responsibility.  That responsibility for me is to share my travels with others with the hopes that maybe, just maybe I will reach even one person who could read what I write and realize they are not alone.

While my buddy ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) may not be anywhere near as severe as many, it is bad enough that even though I am not on oxygen 24/7 yet I do find it very, very difficult to work or do anything much physical for more than about 15 minutes without having to stop and let my lungs catch up.

Today I once again share where I am at and maybe how I may or may not be dealing with it.

I was a loner growing up or so it seemed, as it is if I were to be growing up in today’s society my ‘loner’ times would most likely be considered bouts of depression.

This is brought up because I see depression as one of those side effects that may go along with battling the level of COPD/Asthma that I have and honestly I see it as a side effect of nearly any life-threatening situation, especially with those like ours that can go on for years while causing much alone time in the process.

Last week I crossed paths with a poster type posting (liked it so much I jazzed it up and put it on my blog at wheezingaway.com) talking about anxiety and depression and a couple of items it listed hit close to home with me.

One was wanting friends but not being fond of socializing.  More times than I can remember I was told I was a good time at a social get together, while many of those times I enjoyed the socializing while preferring to be in a much smaller group.  Groups of maybe four is what I seem most comfortable with even though I can work a crowd with the best of any entertainer, politician or faith leader.

A second item in that poster mentioned wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely – that sounds like me as I much too much of the time act and perform like I am thrilled to be alone, all the while knowing inside being alone stresses me out and throws me into that bottomless rabbit hole many would call depression.

Then the mention of caring about everything then caring about nothing – boy is that me as I care, care, care so much then with being alone so much while tumbling down that bottomless rabbit hole of depression my walls become a faceless, numb feeling of ‘oh well, nothing matters anymore’.

Why am I talking about this today – because I am dealing with the realization that the most obvious hindrance to my fighting this battle with COPD/Asthma is my being alone, scared to go out for how my lungs may react and that unbelievable fear of failure when I do find something to keep my mind, body, attitude and spirit moving forward.

Maybe the best step for me is writing and sharing with others which in turn keeps me on top of the reality of my deepest fear and that is not staying near the top of the ‘rabbit hole’.

And that my friends is where ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) and me are at 4 today.

*** I continue a request for all to hold Kaycie Chapman (from down New Zealand way) in your thoughts, prayers and blessings as she continues her courageous Facebook sharing of her continuing battle with late stages of emphysema/asthma/COPD – and she continues to do it with the level of faith and hope for which we all should hope we will have when our battle and travels become much, much worse.  Prayers and Blessings Kaycie.

NOTE TO REMEMBER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.

I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer through wheezingaway.com)

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‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) & Me 4 Today – – Lenny’s Visit Was Worth It!

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Reflections--COPD I am battling a sometimes daily battle with my sidekick ‘Lenny’ (the name I have given my COPD/Asthma) and part of my therapy is to put into words how my week or day is going and then sharing it openly as part of what I call my responsibility.  That responsibility for me is to share my travels with others with the hopes that maybe, just maybe I will reach even one person who could read what I write and realize they are not alone.

While my buddy ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) may not be anywhere near as severe as many, it is bad enough that even though I am not on oxygen 24/7 yet I do find it very, very difficult to work or do anything much physical for more than about 15 minutes without having to stop and let my lungs catch up.

Today I once again share where I am at and maybe how I may or may not be dealing with it.

Last week I was crowing about not getting to just one, but to two of my oldest grandson’s football games and not having any kind of unruly visit from my sometimes obnoxious friend ‘Lenny’ (name I gave my COPD/Asthma).  I mean I was excited because I made two fairly long trips (long for me as they were both 4+ hours total driving time) in a span of four days and all I seemed to have to deal with was being extra tired and a little heavier from eating those wonderful things we call road food.

Unfortunately this past weekend I was not as lucky as I made sure I made an appearance at my middle grandsons very first tackle football game ever, even as it meant I had to walk a lengthy 3-400 yards from the parking spot to the field.

As I have mentioned before that while I am not on oxygen (numbers are not low enough, long enough), I do find myself struggling with walking much – especially outside in any type of warm/hot and windy conditions.

IMG_1790 This walk to watch the football to me was worth it by the look on his face when he saw ‘Papa’ was there watching and taking plenty of pictures.  Considering the weather was warm and there was just a slight breeze I was feeling pretty good about getting the effort done not only for my grandson, but a chance to see some other of my grandkids and to test myself with anticipating success.

Success lasted until that evening when my friend ‘Lenny’ decided to make a visit and then settled in for a steady 40 hour obnoxious stay.

My breathing got very tight, especially on Sunday, with an unusally heightened growth of phlegm which let’s say made life very uncomfortable and very much annoying.

The wife wanted to put vicks on me but I discouraged that, instead I leaned on some concentrated breathing exercises combined with a few Tai Chi movements and with that special lady I call my wife giving me several solid back/neck massages I eventually began to improve and finally by Monday afternoon was feeling somewhat back to normal – enough so that I ventured out to do some part-time work for a local newspaper.

So ‘Lenny’ is still in the process of getting all his bags packed for this visit as I am still a touch tight in taking deeper breathes, but then again nature is not exactly being kind with consistent winds of 20-35 mph today, tomorrow and even into to Thursday – so my week may consist of much extra in house time and postponements of some camera time I was so hoping to get to.

What brought on this extended visit from ‘Lenny’ – I am not sure but feel pretty good about it having to do with venturing out on an adventure in which maybe, just maybe I made myself a bit too comfortable with people encounters.

But the point is I am getting through it and by learning to deal with it I will continue to be self-encouraging to make those grandkid adventures.

And that my friends is where ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) and me are at 4 today.

*** I continue a request for all to hold Kaycie Chapman (from down New Zealand way) in your thoughts, prayers and blessings as she continues her courageous Facebook sharing of her continuing battle with late stages of emphysema/asthma/COPD – and she continues to do it with the level of faith and hope for which we all should hope we will have when our battle and travels become much, much worse.  Prayers and Blessings Kaycie.

NOTE TO REMEMBER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.

I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer through wheezingaway.com)

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‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) & Me 4 Today – – Got Through It

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Reflections--COPD I battling a sometimes daily battle with my sidekick ‘Lenny’ (the name I have given my COPD/Asthma) and part of my therapy is to put into words how my week or day is going and then sharing it openly as part of what I call my responsibility.

That responsibility for me is to share my travels with others with the hopes that maybe, just maybe I will reach even one person who could read what I write and realize they are not alone.

While my buddy ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) may not be anywhere near as severe as many, it is bad enough that even though I am not on oxygen 24/7 yet I do find it very, very difficult to work or do anything much physical for more than about 15 minutes without having to stop and let my lungs catch up.

Today I once again share where I am at and maybe how I may or may not be dealing with it.

Last time we posted I made reference to pushing myself to an edge so that I could attend my grandson’s football game.

I am happy to say, I got through it.  The heat and humidity pushed me to the very edge of nearly having to say enough is enough, but thanx to my middle grandson (who kept checking on me) and an extended break of sitting in the air conditioning of my car at halftime I did get through it.

My grandson’s team rocked their opponent and being just a freshman we had to wait until the last offensive drive of the game to see him play, but when he did get in he played well and even opened the way for the last touchdown of the game.

After a two plus hour drive home and dealing with a touch of insomnia I did finally get to sleep around three in the morning only to awaken at seven without the ability to go back to sleep.  Needless to say I went through my Saturday in a dreary stupor like state – but I did get through it.

And guess what, I did it all over again on Tuesday when that same grandson played his first high school junior varsity game which I also made and yep it meant a two hour drive both ways.

And while everything seemed to be out of whack for several days (I was so tired out and the heat and humidity stayed at uncomfortable levels), I do have today as today is my first day of feeling like maybe my body and mind are back on track and working hard at getting into some sort of routine which for me is nearly a necessity to get anything done.

Overall, except for several brief moments, my sometimes obnoxious sidekick ‘Lenny’ did stay in check and for that I am grateful.

So I look forward to a weekend without much to worry about in regards to getting my COPD/Asthma kicked into gear, at least for the moment as we all know life can and seemingly will change in a heartbeat and with much notice.

And that my friends is where ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) and me are at 4 today.

*** I continue a request for all to hold Kaycie Chapman (from down New Zealand way) in your thoughts, prayers and blessings as she continues her courageous Facebook sharing of her continuing battle with late stages of emphysema/asthma/COPD – and she continues to do it with the level of faith and hope for which we all should hope we will have when our battle and travels become much, much worse.  Prayers and Blessings Kaycie.

NOTE TO REMEMBER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.

I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer through wheezingaway.com)

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‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) & Me 4 Today – – I Will Get Through It

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Keller--Football2014--02 Most know by now that I am battling daily with my sidekick ‘Lenny’ (the name I have given my COPD/Asthma) and part of my therapy is to put into words how my week or day is going and then sharing it openly as part of what I call my responsibility.

Responsibility for me is to share my travels with others with the hopes that maybe, just maybe I will reach even one person who could read what I write and realize they are not alone.

While my buddy ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) may not be anywhere near as severe as many, it is bad enough that even though I am not on oxygen 24/7 yet I do find it very, very difficult to work or do anything much physical for more than about 15 minutes without having to stop and let my lungs catch up.

Today I once again share where I am at and maybe how I may or may not be dealing with it.

Many times here I have talked about the weather and the past several days the weather has not been to kind to me for getting out and about with it being windy and hot.  But today I have to get out and know I will have to just fight through it.

I have to get out because I made a promise to my oldest grandson to be at his first high school varsity football game and that is tonight.

I made that promise not necessarily thinking it would be in the mid-90’s and windy on the first Friday of September, but then again I do live in Kansas where the wind always seems to want to blow my patio furniture around (of course I have rather cheap plastic stuff).

I plan to keep my promise while also getting some long overdue time with my son and more bonding time with my middle grandson, combining that with my promise to Keller – well let’s just say it will get done.

So I am off to grab a quick run on my nebulizer, check on the depth of my rescue inhaler and ask for a little appreciation from the good Lord.

How I will come out of this on the other end, well ask me around midnight or so when I finally get back in town, get the car empty of grandsons and son, and walking through my front door for hopefully a good night’s sleep barring any josting I may get from ‘Lenny’ (name I gave my COPD/Asthma).

I must listen to what I preach and that would be to plan ahead, prepare ahead and dig deep inside and work through it when it’s worth it – and my grandson is more than worth it.

Trust me, I will share again in the weekend and let folks know I how did or didn’t do.

And that my friends is where ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) and me are at 4 today.

*** I continue a request for all to hold Kaycie Chapman (from down New Zealand way) in your thoughts, prayers and blessings as she continues her courageous Facebook sharing of her continuing battle with late stages of emphysema/asthma/COPD – and she continues to do it with the level of faith and hope for which we all should hope we will have when our battle and travels become much, much worse.  Prayers and Blessings Kaycie.

NOTE TO REMEMBER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.

I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer through wheezingaway.com)

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Reflections of COPD/Asthma – Look Back to Help with Today

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Health--COPD--ThreeBranches For me battling COPD/Asthma also means a responsibility to take this battle seriously and that means to always look for ideas, research, diagnoses, game-plans and all that go with keeping the true seriousness of the battle at bay.

It also means being willing to share what I may find or on my own travels with the hope that someone (even if it’s just one person) is willing to read what I write or hear what I say about the ins/outs of COPD/Asthma and may find the needed information or word of encouragement to help in their own battles with either COPD and/or Asthma.

Today’s ‘Reflections of COPD/Asthma’ is a look at the thought that to help with today you must look at your yesterdays.

Doctor’s ask for your health history for a reason and it pays to be very honest and very, very open about your life and health, especially if you are diagnosed with any kind of long-term disease or illness.

For instance if you are diagnosed with cancer of the lungs then you must share with your medical people anything and everything you may have done or been around that could have and/or may have caused problems with your lungs.

Being diagnosed with COPD/Asthma is the same – be up front and honest about everything and anything that could in even in the slightest way have been a problem with your breathing in any way.

Places you worked, places you would eat on a regular basis, places you visit, places you would play and places you would live.  Just as important would be the people throughout your life travels, people you would have worked with, people you would have visited, people you would have played with and people you would have lived with.

Using me as an example, sure I had severe asthma for seemingly forever and my childhood was full of inability to participate in activities and lots of inhalers.  But I also lived in a home in which a parent smoked a pipe for a number of years before quitting when I was in my teens.

While I never smoked on a regular basis I did (like an idiot with all my asthma problems) smoke when I would possible get drunk, but more importantly to my end result of COPD was the places I hung out over about a 5 year period – lots of bars, clubs and restaurants of which in those days allowed smoking everywhere.

I can look back now and know that spending nearly seven years in a fiberglass insulation factory, no matter the reason why I took the job, was not smart for someone who already had lung problems.  And this was followed up with twenty-plus years in the food service industry sniffing those fryer fumes, grill fumes and all those wonderfully toxic cleaning fumes to clean those fryers, grills and counters – and that doesn’t even count the number of those years when food eating places allowed smoking.

Did you live near any factories or refineries, I have and those places more than likely have sent some level of toxic fumes into the air that you would have been breathing.

So especially for any of those who just recently have begun the testy journey of traveling life with COPD and/or asthma – always take a very, very close look at where you have been to help your medical people develop the path best suited for you in your travels with COPD and/or asthma, because without the knowledge of the past you may very well still be hitting those same COPD/Asthma triggers even unintentionally today.

We always try and finish with a question of thought, so today try this for some thinking – – your COPD/Asthma has arrived, but do you know what the invitations were that brought you to this battle and are you sure you are not still leaving the welcome mat out for trigger invitations today and tomorrow?

As with most postings from wheezingaway.com and CrossDove Writer, we like to throw out a question for our readers/followers to consider and maybe even add as some feedback, information or insights in the comments sections of wheezingaway.com – the question for this posting is: How do you in your battle with COPD/Asthma deal daily with those dirty looks and misunderstandings?

NOTE TO REMEMBER: We only give descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember that without breathing a person is without life itself.

With that I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer)

(Information gathered from various news/health websites, COPD Foundation’s “Big Fat Reference Guide on Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease”, “Life and Breath” and the book “Live Your Life with COPD”)

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