By Mr. William

            While I have been troubled by the roller coaster ride of my last four months regarding my COPD/Severe Asthma/Heart issues, I have also noticed something else which is changing in my day-to-day existence.

            I have noticed how many times I can go not just hours, but days and a couple of times even a week or a bit more, without having much of any contact with anyone (except for maybe my wife of course) or even leaving the house.

            Maybe I am becoming somewhat of a ‘hermit’.

            According to definitions found in various places, a ‘hermit’ is a “person who keeps to himself and who doesn’t like to leave his home or see people – a person living in solitude as a religious discipline – a loner – a recluse – (example: an old man who stays locked in his house and gets mad when people come by to visit) – a person living in solitude or seeking to do so”.

            Wow, some of that statement does describe me. Not the one about the old man getting mad when someone comes by, although I have become touchier when someone attempts to do so without calling ahead or giving me some kind of forewarning.

            Now the questions arise. Am I doing so on purpose? What is it that makes me want to become a hermit? Why am I becoming more accepting of the practice? Is it really that good for me to become such a type?

            All these are and should be legitimate questions, so now which one do I work on first.

            Am I doing so on purpose? I don’t think so, although I have made comments to my wife lately about how I am tired of always trying to get others to get together with me and when they take to the idea, I always tell them to let me know as my calendar is always open – then I never hear from them until the next time I call them. Because of those moments, I know I have mentioned to her that I am tired of always being the one making the effort.

            Another reason for pulling away from everyone could be my feeling of embarrassment at times for what my illnesses and I have done to me in my presentation – I mean I am overweight and always frustrated about trying to lose it, many of my teeth are missing due to all those inhalers and prednisone meds I have taken (and I don’t have the money or insurance coverage to take care of them) and I always seem to get short of breath.

            And we didn’t even bring up those nasty triggers I have to beware of that may set off either an Asthma attack or a COPD exacerbation!!

            I would like to say I am getting a whole bunch of great stuff done by being home a lot, but I am not. Instead I seem very lethargic many mornings and it seems to be tough getting myself going any earlier than 10.

            Oh, I am staying busy and occupied with a new website that I launched trying to coordinate all the high school and college news of our county into one spot, plus working on meeting agendas and minutes for city and county councils as well as area school districts. Eventually I want to begin running stories about people that make the county click.

            Of course, the time-consuming effort of the new website makes me tired and then out of energy to do what I should be doing which it is getting more efficient with my website about COPD/Asthma plus the stories I have been working on.

            I don’t really know, but sometimes it just seems that daily life itself with just me, my wife and our puppy, Frosty Lou, goes flying by and we are not sure just exactly what we have or have not accomplished, and thinking about that alone can somedays tire me out.

            Am I becoming a ‘hermit’ – maybe? Am I happy with becoming a ‘hermit’ – in some ways yes I am and in other ways, no it irritates me.

            Guess it’s time to get off this laptop, put some shoes on and maybe take my Frosty Lou for a much-loved ride in the car – does that count at getting out of the house? I mean, I get out and about, I just don’t necessarily meet or talk to anyone.

And that my friends, is where ‘Lenny’ and Me are 4 today.

Like always a few notes and reminders:

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            ALWAYS REMEMBER – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

A person without good breathing, is a person with a life of constant caution’, so let’s do what we can, to learn what we can, to improve what we can.

With that, I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

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NOTES: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or Asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer medical founded information.