LET ME TALK AGAIN!!
By Mr. William
“A person without good breathing, is a person with a life of constant caution, so let’s do what we can, to learn what we can, to improve what we can.” (Will Dursens)
My new year has not started the way I was hoping it would as I have been fighting some kind of bug since like the fifth day of 2020, and I am still not getting over it.
The biggest problem with whatever I am fighting is that it is affecting my larynx or voice.
Now one must remember that I already have a rather unique, gravely sounding voice due to one side of my larynx is mostly paralyzed!
It is a constant reminder to me of what of those unfortunate non-benefits from using all those aerosol type inhalers to treat my asthma over much of my first 40 years of living. At least that is the conclusion which we came to with my doctor during my days living in Minnesota.
There have been times in my life where I just wanted to run from my voice, like when I took a course in radio/television at a local community vocational school in the mid-1970’s.
Despite having one of the top three grade outs of the 25 student class, plus one of the two most popular in class radio shows – my voice became a negative when the time came to start working on demo tapes to send out for a possible job in the business of radio broadcasting.
Our instructor and the mentor who began the program at the vocational/technical school, simply laid it out to me saying I did not have the voice for radio broadcasting on a regular basis or to be on the air in television for the same reason.
Don’t know how many of you may have been around in the 1960’s and 1970’s, but some of the top radio and even television personalities did not have what I would call a real great voice for radio.
Guys like Wolfman Jack, Howard Cosell or even Dick Cavett did not have those so called ‘perfect’ pipes. Yet they all made a very solid living doing what they enjoyed doing.
Unfortunately, being the irritated 19-year old that I was, I simply walked away. I just quit the class less than four weeks from graduation and went to work for Radio Shack and within the following 12 months, moved up with the company plus I found a favorite lady which resulted in a pregnancy, marriage and birth of my oldest child all within 10 months!
Obviously, it still irritates me that I could not pursue my first love, being a radio or television personality or journalist.
I will admit to one other thing about the whole ordeal, that instructor did point out that it wasn’t just my gravely voice but also my deep breathing sounds I made on a consistent basis when breathing. A noise that I still have today when I listen back to something I have recorded, a noise which is just part of my life travels while battling severe asthma and now, Stage III COPD as well.
Back to the problem of today, whatever I am fighting seems to mess with my voice every few days to the point where I have to tone it down to a whisper so that my larynx would not get irritated when I would try to talk.
All I really want back is my voice at its normal, gravely tone. The kind of voice that makes it very easy for someone who may not have talked to my in up maybe 40 years, still know who it is if I were to call just to say hi and say thank you for being part of my walk in life. So much for making any prank phone calls.
I have tried those throat sprays, which I don’t really care for because all they really do is numb the throat area.
I have tried to drink hot tea smothered in some honey and lemon juice. Not big on the lemon juice stuff so my tea is mostly smothered in just the honey.
I have gargled several times a day and even that seems to be a waste of time.
My physician’s assistant has me on a second run of prednisone and all that has done is make me feel better for a few days before everything in the throat and larynx area seems to once again become agitated and once again my voice begins to become impossible to use with a problem.
Guess it is close to time where I may need to see if my physician wants me to go to a throat specialist like a did a few years back when they took a nodule off my paralyzed side of the larynx.
Guess it is time to realize one of the benefits of having voice issues, it keeps conversations short and to the point while giving me much more quiet time.
A question for those reading this or who may follow my blogs – Do you have voice issues brought on from using too many inhalers while fighting your asthma or COPD condition?
So, until I can talk again (not literally), that is where Lenny and I are at for today.
And that my friends, is where ‘Lenny’ and Me are 4 today.
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With that, I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.
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