By William
(‘Lenny & Me’ refers to myself and my constant companion – chronic illness and disabilities with the lungs in severe asthma/COPD as well as anxiety. ‘Lenny’ is a name I gave my chronic illness because giving it a name I find it easier to deal with.)
Okay, let’s try this now – trying hard to get back on track to a do a weekly ‘Lenny & Me’ and talk about my travels in life with a disability or chronic illness.
On top of the lung and heart issues, I also continue to fight two other issues which could be called disabilities or a chronic illness to some folks – that is being overweight and having a bout of adult ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder).
My weight issue continues to be a problem though it has stabilized at a better spot than in the past couple of years, I could still find many benefits if I could drop another 40-50 pounds.
Some of the issues I have losing weight comes from my lung and heart issues which make it near impossible to get any lengthy cardio work done.
I am slowly learning that I must limit myself to white breads in particular which makes it easier to say no to an outside hamburger from places like McDonalds, Burger King and Arby’s. My doctor says to stop eating potatoes, but I instead have worked diligently at being careful on the portions I eat instead.
My drinking of soda has dropped to almost never unless I am traveling, then I do have a mountain dew or two, especially if traveling for a long period (long meaning more than an hour or two or at night).
While I continue to experiment with many Keto Diet ideas, I know to still get some carbs in each day as it is the proper thing to do – just do so very moderately.
Since I was a child I had issues staying focused on a task for any length of time, always bouncing from one to another no matter how much fun it may be.
As an adult, I have the same issue only sometimes it seems to be worse than ever before.
The blogs I write are a perfect example of that, including this one I call ‘Lenny & Me 4 Today’. Do you know how many times I skip over writing it – don’t answer as I already know.
Many of my writings can go in sync for weeks at a time, sometimes even a few months – but then it is like I become my own worst enemy and just shut down in trying to write them.
It is true with the books I write or attempt to write.
Currently I have published four books that I am proud of – including one called ‘Living Today – 40 Writings of Comfort/Meditations for those with a Chronic Illness and/or Disability’. I also wrote two short novelettes – ‘Nature’s Way’ and ‘Roads and Destinations of a Mind’ (a collection of short stories).
Using my pen name Will Dursens, these are the only books I have finished though I have at least four others that my ideas have made some actual pages of text, just not finished. Two book ideas have been in the works for over three years, I just can’t seem to stay on track with them.
The internet has suddenly become one of my worst enemies as I am an information junkie which means it is so very easy for me to go down some ‘rabbit hole’ when looking at the internet or in particular checking out my Facebook pages.
As much as I scream and yell about the information age is so accessible while the true meaning of journalism and information in print is becoming more and more obsolete, I am as much blame as anyone.
When I was not disabled and had the ability to have an actual job working in the food industry in particular, I was fine because I had a set time to be on the job and a set number of actions to do while at the job.
But trying to be my own boss has always been an issue with me for the inability to stay focused. No true threat hanging over my head when not getting things done such as a loss of a job and pay – though when not writing I do loose what little income I seem to make from it.
So here I am today, venting a bit on what my issues are over and beyond my constant battle with breathing and heartbeats.
While some may not believe it is so, I as I get older find that the idea of attention disorders are nearly as important as any chronic illness, especially when it may keep an individual from getting jobs done or held.
I am sure we will revisit this topic again, but for now know that if I am not posting new blog writes about chronic illness and disabilities, it might not be because I am ailing as much as my focus has been distracted once again.
And this folks is where ‘Lenny and I’ are to today.
May all have a very happy, blessed and prosperous (both physically, mentally, and faithfully) New Year!
A REMINDER – Do you have any comments or questions about my postings, then feel free to leave a comment on either at this blog, at the email address of wheezingaway@gmail.com or on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/copdtravels/.
ALWAYS REMEMBER (because I have COPD and severe Asthma) – If you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.
With that, I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings, and steady breathing – Mr. William.
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NOTES & DISCLAIMER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or Asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer medical founded information.
Living Today is a series of 40 writings meant to bring comfort to those who battle daily with a chronic illness and/or a disability. Each writing will have a ‘Voice from the Word’, ‘Time for Thought’ and then end with a ‘Moment for Meditation/Prayer’.
Presented by a writer who lives the life as a person battling, sometimes daily, their own chronic illnesses and/or disability.
Just simple writings in simple, layperson language, with the idea of helping others get through something in their own lives as they also battle a chronic illness and/or disability.