‘Lenny’ & Me 4 Today – – Thanksgiving Thankfulness

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Health--Breathe--002 When you travel life with a sidekick like ‘Lenny’ who at any time can flare up and remind you of the true depth of your incurable disease of COPD you many days find it difficult to say thank you for anything more than a few minutes of good breathing.

I once again share where I am at and maybe how myself and ‘Lenny’ may or may not be dealing with life and my own COPD/Asthma Travels.

Today is ‘Thanksgiving’ here in the United States and while many now use it to buy those great deals of more stuff that most of us do not really need – it is truly a day that we should be saying thank you for what we have.

Bouncing around on facebook is a great line that says something to the effect that ‘Black Friday is an American special where so many fight tooth and nail over things they really do not need just one day after spending time celebrating and saying thanks for all the things they do have’.  What an observation that is.

This year my Thanksgiving has a special meaning as the date which it falls on is also the 3-year anniversary of my life, my chance to live again, my survival of a massive heart attack in which my life did go silent for a few minutes in time.

So this year I have not only an opportunity to be thankful but an opportunity to celebrate.

So as I celebrate my life I know it can not be done without also saying thanks to and for so many.

Thankful for my wife who has stood by me literally through thick and thin, sickness and health while all the while giving me encouragement and that reminder that we still have 40+ years of life together to travel.

Thankful for my doctors – my regular physician, my pulmonologist, my cardiologist and the staff that supports them – they all have guided me, been stern with me, been pleased with me and most of all have been absolutely focused on making my life with COPD/Asthma as good as possible.

Thankful for my kids, all five of them plus spouses, for most of the time they remember to check on me when they can, plan time together with memories to last forever and to also make me feel like – I did okay.

Thankful for my grandkids, which numbers 10 plus one due to arrive in June.  These very special gifts of life make me feel loved, make me feel accepted even when ‘Gramps’ acts goofy and most of all are quick to remind me if ‘Gramps’ is doing or eating something he should not be doing.

Thankful for ‘Lenny’ (the name I have given my COPD/Asthma), for ‘Lenny’ has taught me to live every day one day at a time and somedays one breath at a time.  ‘Lenny’ has given me a reason to look at the positive, throw out the negative, to love not hate, to trust not distrust, to keep my smiles from turning to frowns and to always have that one thought that works at nothing but to keep me breathing one breath at a time.

My thankfuls could go on and on and on, but the time is getting late and the morning will come early with busy things to get done and celebrating to celebrate.

While today here in the boundaries which I live it is called ‘Thanksgiving’, I know that the thankfulness of thanksgiving should be part of our daily routine each and every day of life itself.

Now let us all remember that November is ‘COPD AWARENESS MONTH’ – so take time today to share your story, to educate others and to be grateful for all you do have.

‘Lenny’ and I once again make a vow to continue to share our story of life with COPD/Asthma while also sharing those things we learn about the conditions with the hope that at least each time we share – a minimum of one person gets it, understands it and passes it on.

And that my friends is where “‘Lenny’ & Me are 4 today”.

*** CONTINUE PRAYERS AND BLESSINGS FOR KAYCIE CHAPMAN *** An all-star in sharing her continued fight with her own COPD battle.

NOTE TO REMEMBER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.

I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer through wheezingaway.com)

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‘Lenny’ & Me 4 Today – – Becoming a Month to Remember

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Health--COPD-Awareness  Ever seem to find life just passing you by and looking over your shoulder and realizing what did and more important what did not get done over a day, week, month or year worth of time?  I can say for sure I have way too many of these.

But here I am over halfway through November and realizing just how important this month is for my friend ‘Lenny’ and myself as it is COPD AWARENESS MONTH and I realize I am not carrying my share of the load or my promise I made in the past which was to keep on top of it, learn about it, remind others about it and most importantly – make others aware of this eventually deadly disease and all that it entails.

So as you can see already I am changing things up by not starting “’Lenny’ & Me 4 Today” out with my normal two or three paragraph reminder of how I got here and why it is important to me to share – – I’m pretty sure most of you that read me already know this by now, though I will once in a while remind us all.

But for today I once again share where I am at and maybe how I may or may not be dealing with life and my own COPD/Asthma Travels.

November is COPD Awareness Month – – Remember ‘Without Breathing, One is Without Life’…….

My month so far has had some medical notes to share and some family issues to think about.

Yep I had my six-month check-up with my cardiologist and they seem to be pleased with how I sounded and how my pacemaker is working, all of which says I do not need to come back for a year – – can we get a hip-hip-hooray!!

Last week I meet with my pulmonologist and yep, you guessed it all seemed to be going as good as can be expected and I was told, you ready for this, no need to come back for a year – – can we get another hip-hip-hooray!!

Of course my lung doc (easier than always spelling out pulmonologist) reminded me that some of what we discussed like getting winded taking a shower, getting winded trying to work in the yard, getting winded taking a long walk without pacing and feeling fatigued – well they are all part of the thought that I have Stage III COPD and severe Asthma and that is just part of the game, oh and yes over time it will get worse but keep doing what I am doing and that worse will be held at a distance for much longer than if I do nothing.

November is memorable as we have an adult child who continues to fight her own evil demons of addiction and mental illness – to the point where our grandson is now living with his Mom’s Dad, the other grandpa, and because of that we are now fighting to find time, money and vehicle to make many more trips to help taking care of him.  My truly first opportunity to watch Colton on my own comes this weekend for a few hours (did I mention he is a little autistic and have some developmental problems) – so give me a good luck, prayers and yet another hip-hip-hooray!!

But the best news for November is my wife’s oldest daughter and husband are expecting – we are now planning for grandchild #11.  Can I get another hip-hip-hooray!!

The most important thing about November is it is ‘COPD AWARENESS MONTH’ and today is ‘WORLD COPD DAY’ – so take time today to share your story, to educate others and to be grateful for all you do have.

‘Lenny’ and I once again make a vow to continue to share our story of life with COPD/Asthma while also sharing those things we learn about the conditions with the hope that at least each time we share – a minimum of one person gets it, understands it and passes it on.

And that my friends is where “‘Lenny’ & Me are 4 today”.

*** CONTINUE PRAYERS AND BLESSINGS FOR KAYCIE CHAPMAN ***

NOTE TO REMEMBER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.

I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer through wheezingaway.com)

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‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) & Me 4 Today – – Where Did It Go?

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MarvelsOfSpaceAndTime--BloodMoon--Sept2015 Yes I continue my daily battle with my sidekick ‘Lenny’ (the name I have given my COPD/Asthma) and for me part of my therapy of sorts is to put into words how my battle may be going and then sharing it openly as part of what I call my responsibility.

That responsibility for my battle is to talk about my travels with ‘Lenny’ and share with others with the hope that maybe, just maybe, I will reach even one other person whom may read what I share and realize they are not alone.

While my buddy ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) may not be anywhere near as severe as many, it is bad enough that even though I am not on oxygen 24/7 yet I do find it very, very difficult to work or do anything much physical for more than about 15 minutes without having to stop and let my lungs catch up.

Today I once again share where I am at and maybe how I may or may not be dealing with it.

Where did it go?  Just where did this past week run off too, I am looking back and I am not sure just what happened, let alone when, why or how.

I do know that having goals or a passion for something(s) can and will (in my opinion) help in a battle with COPD/Asthma or any health issue.

For me I have a couple of passions and they each keep me going in their own ways and do in part help my battle with my ornery sidekick ‘Lenny’, while at the same time those same passions can and do work against me – that is when I have to key in on the event and either prepare for what will be happening or prepare for the ramifications of the happening.

Example – last Monday I drove 2 ½ hours each way just to have barely 2 hours of watching my oldest grandson play in his junior varsity high school football game as my kids and grandkids are a major focus point of my journey.  With no opportunity for anyone to go with me, it was just me and I am fully aware that anymore, even trips like that can stress my physical and mental nature to a point that I have to prepare for the day after in which I almost always (at least anymore) will have a full or partial day of struggling with ‘Lenny’ flaring up and reminding me of my weakened breathing apparatus.

Example 2 – Sunday evening we all know about the ‘Blood Moon Lunar Eclipse’ and since another passion I have is photography I insisted on going out to just beyond the edge of town, find a parking spot and spend two plus hours taking over 600 photo shots of the event itself.

Problem was I positioned myself on a rock gravel road and when traffic did go by they threw rocks and lots of dust.  Even my middle grandson noticed and reminded ‘Papa’ that somebody should have brought a cover for his ‘breathing holes’, it is nice to have grandkids that watch out for you.  Of course by the middle of yesterday I was feeling somewhat miserable for a few hours – but then again I put myself in that position and knew it was coming so I cleared my day to have just me time to let ‘Lenny’ squeeze my lungs for a short while before I was able to use some of those ‘pursed lips’ things to get ‘Lenny’ to let go and go back into hiding until another time.

See just two events combined with my writing and boom, here it is the beginning of another week and I am still floundering over what happened in the last seven days let alone properly plan out for a new seven day stretch.  So as I looked in the mirror this morning I simply gave myself a toothy smile, a laugh and a hearty ‘oh what the hell it is just time and what importance is that’ speaking too.

So when you think you are starting to wonder ‘where did it go’ with your time and days – find your passions, set some goals and run for them as fast and devoted as you can because ‘where did it go’ is too important to those of us with time limits tapping us on the shoulder.

And that my friends is where ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) and me are at 4 today.

*** CONTINUE PRAYERS AND BLESSINGS FOR KAYCIE CHAPMAN ***

NOTE TO REMEMBER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.

I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer through wheezingaway.com)

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‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) & Me 4 Today – – Apprehension is running thick

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Reflections--LifeIsLikeAFight Being willing to share with others the path I am traveling while battling ‘Lenny’ (name I have given my COPD/Asthma) is almost like therapy for me while also giving me the responsibility of taking my battle seriously.

With the help of social media I know I can also reach out to others who are also fighting similar battles and hopefully at time supply a little insight, little knowledge and maybe stir up some questions.

Today I once again share where I am at and maybe how I may or may not be dealing with it.

Heading out on a short road trip, taking me back to my old stomping grounds of Lincoln, Nebraska and while excited, I seem to feel a deep sense of apprehension.

The road trip is partially out of necessity as my 81-year old aunt from the east coast has been here for a couple of days on the back end of her 10-day family visit to the great plains and since the end of her visit requires catching a plane out of Lincoln then somebody has to get her to the airport on time.

Any trip to Lincoln is exciting as it gives me a time to reflect on a wonderful time of growing up (at least kindergarten through ninth grade) while also a bit of a sad time as so much has changed and so many folks are no longer with us, but still – going to Lincoln is a trip I almost always will welcome with open arms.

So why the deep sense of apprehension – by looking within I think I can find the levels of apprehension and why they are running deep today.

For one I have not had a very enjoyable summer with the hot temperature and high humidity causing ‘Lenny’ to wrestle with me much more often than normal and every time we wrestle it seems to just blow up my energy like a prick of a pin to a fully inflated balloon.  This alone can cause more than enough apprehension in any and all may try to do in any day, week or month.

Secondly, anytime I travel anymore I find a raised level of stress because of having to make sure I have my meds, make sure I have an extra rescue inhaler, make sure I have my nebulizer machine and meds, make sure I have my c-pap machine for sleeping and still make sure I pack the clothes and personal necessities I will be needing.

A third reason could be that new exciting world of journalism I have re-entered on a free-lance level writing for a new weekly newspaper in the area.  Knowing that next weeks edition is requiring three personal profiles, a large fall sports preview plus a recap of the next scheduled local school board meeting.  And the appointments and contacts I need to make need to be made now, but yet scheduled in a two day window for when I get back – time frames sometimes are such a pain.

A fourth reason for some deep apprehension, and this one is more of a personally fulfilling one, will be having the time to visit a few old friends, the old stomping ground neighborhood and schools as well as taking pictures, pictures and more pictures – plus the goal of going through my Dad’s house and taking many, many pictures of pictures and things.

So apprehension can be defined from two different angles – one being of understanding and grasp of something/somewhere/somebody and/or a filling of anxiety or fear.  By those definitions I am comfortable knowing that I will, at least for the next couple of days, have a deep feeling of all things defined as apprehension.

And this all comes without facing the fact that my visits with my dear, wonderful aunt seem to be getting farther apart and that adds apprehension in the fear that someday, sometime, somehow she too will be gone and our human visits will be no more.

And that my friends is where ‘Lenny’ (my COPD/Asthma) and me are at 4 today.

*** I continue a request for all to hold Kaycie Chapman (from down New Zealand way) in your thoughts, prayers and blessings as she continues her courageous Facebook sharing of her continuing battle with late stages of emphysema/asthma/COPD – and she continues to do it with the level of faith and hope for which we all should hope we will have when our battle and travels become much, much worse.  Prayers and Blessings Kaycie.

NOTE TO REMEMBER: Sometimes we share what may seem like medical information, but we are only giving descriptions and highlights of various aspects of having COPD and/or asthma and no way do we ever want our information to be considered medical treatment type of information, always consult your physician for more, clearer and more medical founded information.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember – a person without breathing is a person without life itself.

I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer through wheezingaway.com)

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COPD & ME – – Medicare, Government & COPD – Ugh……..

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Shirt--BreathinWheezinOneDayAtATime  The time frame is getting tighter for me as my two year anniversary comes up for being officially listed as ‘fully disabled’ due to COPD.

My next few months may be full of anxiety if I allow it, but at the minimum it will be full of thinking and decisions.

Monday I visited with someone about my upcoming Medicare and the supplement programs that will be needed to go with it.

While I was pleased at how well it was all explained to me and the ability made to point me in the right direction, it is still on the borderline of overwhelming to a degree.

The humor of the week came the next day when I received by mail my initial Medicare Card, complete with more information (government stuff) about the program and its supplements.

As I wade through all this information and work on processing what is best for myself and my COPD, I also have the burden of anxiety about what is going on in our government.

If the right-wing end of Washington is serious about some of their proposals how it will affect me and my disability payments.  Can I afford the prospect of a 20% cut in my benefits – a question most of my readers can answer as well, a resounding NO.

I did not ask or purposely put myself in my position of being disabled.

I did not ask or purposely cause my lungs to begin to fail me, although we all can look back and find things we wish we could change with hindsight.

I did for many, many years pay into a Social Security and Disability through the FICA programs with idea that it would help take care of me when the time came that I needed it – so do not mess with it.

Anxiety and stress is not something that someone with COPD and/or heart problems (I have both) should bring into their daily living as it will hamper how they can control that which is already trying to control us every time we take a breath or feel our heart beat.

So today it is a touch of anxiety which is also why I took a longer nap yesterday and spent more time watching miscellaneous television today – guess I am trying to avoid some of that anxiousness as best I can.

What is causing you anxiety today?

Can you call on others to help you with that anxiety today and if you can – will you?

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember always that without breathing a person is without life itself.

With that I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2015, CrossDove Writer)

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Watch Your Motivation When Sharing!

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Reflections--Motivation--004  We at CrossDove Writer and Wheezing Away have asked this question before, but it has been a while so we will ask it once again…….

What is your motivation?  Is it the same each and every day or does it change depending on things like your mood, your emotions, your finances or whatever.

When you have an illness like COPD, it too will reflect on your motivation in nearly each and everything you do.

When you peck away at that keyboard in front of you, whether sharing with a friend or the public – is your motivation in the proper place?

I always find it disheartening when I see postings for which people are whining or dishing on others.  If you follow Facebook you can find daily rants about others especially when any discussion involves politics.

Now I do agree there are times and places to get “things off your shoulders” as we would call it, but even then what are your true motivations.

Are you just letting off steam, sharing an emotion, releasing a frustration or are you trying to attack a situation, a place or a person?

Even in my keyboard word adventures I will on occasion release some emotions, frustrations or aggravations; but I also try real hard not to single out places or people directly because that never ends well.

Yes, those of us with COPD at times feel the need to vent about the frustrations, hurts, loneliness and anger which we have to fight through at times as part of dealing with an endless run of breathing problems.

But do remember, the one fault of the socializing on the internet is that it hangs out there forever and is available to eventually be seen or read by more eyes than we can imagine.

So the lesson is – when hammering away at the keyboard be sure and know your motivation and intentions and make sure they will not be anything for which you will regret in a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month, a year or a lifetime.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember always that without breathing a person is without life itself.

With that I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2014, CrossDove Writer)

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A Merry COPD Christmas It Is!!

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Holidays--MerryChristmas--001  Yes it is a very Merry COPD Christmas at our house for several reasons.

First and foremost – MERRY, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND WISHES FOR A VERY BLESSED NEW YEAR to all from Mr. William, COPD Travels and CrossDove Writer!!  We feel blessed to have the opportunity to come in front of you and share not only our travels with our COPD battle, but to also share ideas, information, encouragement and blessings.

Secondly, my health at this point of time is hanging more on the positive side than the negative side.  With my new pacemaker now holding watch over my ticker for a little over a week now I am enjoying a very regular heart rate for the first time in several years.  My blood pressure is getting back down to a more livable level and the bottom of my feet are getting rid of their blue tint finally.

Thirdly I seem to have a little more energy now, and when I do hit a spot where the COPD puts my breathing into a little tizzy the more normal heart rate is helping my recuperating time shorter than the more recent past.

Fourth, despite a few setbacks in health at times my wife and I have had a good year.  Our plusses have been many like a new single-level home, new appliances and a new outlook for a positive life ahead.

The longer I have my COPD, the more I look to stay informed, get informed and pass on what I have been informed.

One aspect my pacemaker does present to me is that with a regular heart rate I can see my prognoses for a longer term of steady care with the COPD has been brightened.

Okay I am done chatting for today – but I am hoping that all you, that are like me and have COPD, will have a most memorable Christmas season.

As always – if you or anyone you know have any symptoms involving lung and breathing functionality, and they linger over and over while disrupting a lifestyle – then please ask questions and get it checked out.

Remember always that without breathing a person is without life itself.

With that I bid to all – smiles, prayers, blessings and steady breathing – Mr. William.

(Copyright@2014, CrossDove Writer)

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