By William           

        The past week has been a week where ADHD didn’t just slow me down – it stopped me in my tracks.

        My ADHD got in the way, this time just freezing me up when I found myself with too much on my plate for several days in a row.

HOW DID I GET THERE?

        As I have mentioned before, I live daily with ADHD (self-diagnosed) and even made a list of the symptoms in a previous “Snaz & I for Today” posting from March 30.

        For those who do not know, Snaz is a name I gave to my chronic illness of severe asthma & COPD, making my walk with it more personal. (more on that in a future write)

        This is my most terrorizing long-term challenge in life due to how it so quickly gets away from my control, many times subtetly, sometimes not.

        With the increase of writing for a local weekly paper, like four to five times more stories to do per week, along with my own area small school sports write, attempting to write about an event within 24 hours of it happening – I can and did get overwhelmed.

        It did not help when continued issues with a couple of our adult children sprouted new directions, one in a positive way and one very negative toward me – his father.

        Moments like this remind me why STABILITY CIRCLE matters – because so many of us live in this tension daily!!

        My reality is that all the above brought me to moments of total breakdown with finding difficult to stay on task and worst – having a lack of follow through with the most important need and want to write about my passion – helping people live and survive with chronic illness and/or long-term challenges, such as adult ADHD.

SO, REALLY – WHERE IS SNAZ & I for TODAY?

        For one, I called on a pastor friend of mine and he came by this afternoon and listened to my venting of issues I felt were emotionally draining me at the moment of my desire to stay on track.

        The best thing for me was having Pastor Jon here for 90 minutes, listening, offering a few words of guidance and ending with a bit of communion and reminder of my need to lean on the great spirits (one being a good friend in Jesus Christ) to guide me along.

        You know, my wife keeps saying she is here to listen and all, but she has too much emotion in some of these situations and that is when things get cloudy.

        After my pastor friend left, I sat down and began once again to reorganize and begin a rhythm for rebuilding my website ‘wheezingaway.com’ into a website for stability for those with chronic illnesses. Retitling it ‘Stability Circle – Living with a Chronic Illness and/or Long-Term Challenges’.

REFLECTIONS & GRATITUDES

        From here I make a list of daily things that will be a must to do, and as hard as it is for me to stay in long time routines – this daily list is a must to in order to keep my various writing projects organized to where they do not overwhelm me.

        Daily be available for my writing – the Stability Circle and book writings, plus daily time to spend on the sports writing stuff.

        My gratitude today points directly at my friend Pastor Jon, for coming over and spending quality time listening and conversing with me. He is a valued member of my walk of life.

        Gratitude #2 is again my white fluff ball of fur – Frosty Lou, our seven-year old Maltese. No matter what he may or may not be doing, if I get up and move – he follows, just true unconditional love and heart of caring.

        Gratitude #3 of course is my wife who puts up with my mood swings and aches plus pains.

        Gratitude #4 is my two sisters who in the past two days have managed to provide lengthy (at least 20 minute) conversations with me about life and living at age 70. I am blessed.

WHAT IS NEXT?

        Not sure, but I can tell you one thing- I am going to post this, do a couple of sports writing things and get to bed early (for me that is before 3:00 AM), maybe by 1:15!!

        Until next write and read – have a most delicious day tomorrow and the days after, may you wake up and be grateful for the little things before loving the big ones, and as always – keep the faith and hope for your days ahead so that you may find peace and grace in the ones you have today.

        ALOHA!!

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